Till now..I am still left clueless..

As to why it ended just like that..
Why??
I have no idea..
Getting so angry just because of that..
Wanting me to do that fckued up thing just to win back ure heart?

Its allright..I guess..
In this holy month, i just pray..
pray to god..for you..
So that he the allmighty will open ure eyes..
really open your eyes..
As in literally open it up wide..
And see that who was the one who showed you care and concern despite the distance..
Quietly not voicing the intentions and the urgency to REALLY spend time together..

Ya Allah aku memohon pada mu..
Ampunkan lah segala dosa Suhaila..
Murahkan rezeki ke atas nya agar dia senang..
Aku memohon kepada mu Ya Allah agar kamu tidak menghampakan hamba mu ini..

i never have any hard feelings towards you even after u broke up with me..
Shattering me..

Read the lyrics to the song 'You' that u once dedicated to me..
Hope it sheds some light on you..

I do hope u will realise it one day..
Yes im being selfish..not thinking bout ure side of the story..
But my actions is justified by the fact that what i did was only for the sake for our relationship..
it really was for it and always has been..

I do hope that u will come to realise it..
Cause by the time you do, i will not exist in ure life anymore..